Monday, February 21, 2011

The Power of Positive Thinking

The title of this post isn't going to make much sense at first.. just bare with me.

I had my growth ultrasound on Thursday & it didn't go as well as I had hoped. First off, my cervix is measuring 3.1. Still above 3, so that's good, but since it's so close to that magic number my OB put me on modified bed rest until I get my cervix checked again in 2 weeks. Basically that just means that I need to stay off my feet as much as possible, and minimize any stress at work. My OB wants me to try to work from home, but I'm thinking of working something out where I work from home a couple days a week, and the other days I'll go in. I have a desk job, so it's not like I'm on my feet anyways.

It worries me that I'm just shy of 24 weeks and already on modified bed rest, but I'm willing to do whatever I have to do to keep these babies in for as long as possible.

The ultrasound also showed the babies' fluid level surrounding them was a tad on the high side. The doctor said it's nothing to worry about at this point, but it could be an indicator for gestational diabetes. I have that test this Wednesday, so we'll see how that goes.

Lastly, they still aren't able to detect a part of baby A's nasal bone. I'm not sure if you remember that from my anatomy scan, but it's a marker for down syndrome. At the time the thought was that she was just too wiggly to get a good profile pictures, but this last ultrasound confirmed that it's not there. Of course she has a nose, it's just that there's a part of the nasal bone that's not there.

Our bloodwork was awesome (1 in 100,000), but this one marker takes the risk of downs to 1 in 10,000. I had to sit down with the doctor after the ultrasound to discuss it further. Basically the only way to know whether she has downs is to do an amnio, which at this point in the pregnancy I'm just not willing to take that risk. The doctor said he's had 2 patients who had the same situation and their babies were just fine. He said the nasal bone didn't show up in any ultrasound throughout their entire pregnancy, so I should expect the same and just hope for the best when she's born. sigh.

So, I was angry.. angry that I have to just wait it out the next few months not knowing whether baby A has down syndrome, or not. I was angry that after all we went through just to get pregnant, we would have something like this to worry about. Don't get me wrong, we would love her no matter what.. there's nothing that would change that. But, would it be a huge life changing experience that scares the crap out of me? Heck yeah.

That's where we're at. Not the best of appointments. But then I talked to a friend yesterday who battled breast cancer for 3.5 years, and just found out this week that she's officially cancer free (YAY!). She talked to me about the power of positive thinking and how she's convinced that's what finally beat her cancer. She started meditating, and completely changed her outlook on life & her battle with cancer.

I won't go on & on about everything she did, but it really got me thinking. I've decided to stay positive and expect nothing but the best outcome when the babies are born. With no other markers and great bloodwork, the chance that she's perfectly healthy is really in our favor. Why dwell on something I have no control over?

So, nothing but positive thinking from here on out.. we WILL have two beautiful, healthy baby girls in May.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

23 weeks!

I continue to suck at blogging. I had all these grand plans of posting a nursery update but then we ran into a problem over the weekend that resulted in holes in the nursery walls. You see, I decided that I wanted a simple little chandelier hung in their room. Dan told me no big deal, he'll be able to re-route the wire through the attic. Sweet!

We went out and bought the chandelier on Saturday and Sunday morning Dan set out to get it installed. After a whole lot of swearing, a couple of holes in the nursery wall, and a hole in the bathroom wall, it was decided that an electrician needed to be called. It's not all Dan's doing though.. we have really old wiring in our house and apparently the old owners cut some serious corners when they did an upgrade to some lighting. sigh.

So, hopefully we'll have an electrician out this week, it won't cost us an arm & a leg, and we'll get those holes patched and painted over quickly. Fingers firmly crossed.

I'm starting to get frustrated though because I'd like to get the nursery at least 90% complete before my shower (April 3rd) and time just seems to be flying. I'm still on the hunt for the perfect dresser, I need shelves for the walls, whatever art/decorations that will go up on the walls, and window treatments. It would probably help if I wasn't so indecisive about what I want. :)

So that's my non-update to the nursery. Hopefully I'll be able to post some progress pictures within the next week or two.

In other news, I'm seriously getting huge. The girls had a growth spurt within the last week or two.. it's so noticeable! All of a sudden I have people asking me when I'm due and mouths dropping when I tell them I still have a few months. My tax guy actually told me yesterday that he was expecting to hear that I was having the babies in a week or two!! For reals.. I'm getting big.

Here's some proof for you:

How far along: 23 weeks!

Size of baby: Two mangos

Total weight gain/loss: I've gained about 6 lbs.. that was after losing a couple lbs from the flu, but I can almost guarantee I've gained a few more lbs since. We'll find out next week.

Maternity Clothes: Yep.. almost all bottoms are maternity, tops & dresses are a mix of maternity & non-maternity.

Gender: Two sweet little ladies

Movement: I'm feeling both babies now! I can't get enough of it. I feel them the most in the evening when I'm lounging either in the recliner or in bed. And especially after dessert :)

Sleep: ugh.. getting more & more uncomfortable. Lots of flip flopping, and my hips are starting to feel sore from sleeping only on my side. I think a big body pillow might be in order.

What I miss: not much, but I had my first real craving for a glass of wine over the weekend. Dan and I went to a fancy dinner and play for his birthday, and I was drooling over his glass of wine. It smelled so delicious. For Valentines Day I cracked open the non-alcoholic bottle of red wine my sister-in-law gave me, and while it was tasty.. it obviously wasn't the same. ::sadface:: That's ok though, these growing babies are obviously worth the small sacrifice.

Cravings: Sweets.. like whoa. I need to cool it since my diabetes test is next week. Specifically I've been craving Girl Scout cookies, with no girl scout in site. I even had a dream that someone hooked me up with 2 boxes of thin mints.. it was like a drug deal, I'm not kidding you. Sad, I know. And then guess what happened? On my way out of the grocery store on Monday I hear this sweet little voice "Would you like to buy some girl scout cookies??".. my panicked response "Do you guys take checks??" .. queue the chuckle from the man walking by. Ahhh, hilarious.. the pregnant lady is so desperate for her cookie fix that she's asking if they take checks. :( Sadly, they only take cash and OF COURSE I didn't have any cash on me. I'm going to eat a girl scout cookie by the end of this week if it kills me.

Symptoms: Acid reflux, aching hips..

Milestone: hm.. does having people ask me about the pregnancy count as a milestone? It just started happening this past week so I think it's obvious that I'm pregnant now.

Best Moment this Week: Dan feeling the babies kicks & punches, more & more. I love when he waits there for something to happen, they give his hand a huge kick, and his face just lights up. :) It's the best.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

A good update

I had my appointment today to measure my cervix again and it went from 3.4 to 3.7. Woot!! So, we're still doing great! We got a peak at the girls today too, so that always makes me happy. :)

We have our growth ultrasound next week, followed the next week by the dreaded diabetes testing.. fun!

Happy Friday-Eve, everyone!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

22 weeks!

Howdy! It's been awhile.. but I promise I have a good excuse. A couple of them actually!

The night of my last post (20 weeks) I had a little scare. Dan was putting the cribs together (yay!), I was supervising, and I got really light headed. When I went to the bathroom just before bed I had some bright red blood on the t.p. It was just a little, but enough to freak me out. So, I stayed home from work the next day & called my doc, who wanted to see me the next day to measure my cervix. Good news.. my cervix was measuring at 3.4, and they want anything over 3. Woohoo! I was a little worried since just 2 weeks earlier it was supposedly 4.8, and that seems like such a drastic drop, but my OB wasn't worried about it. She just wants me to take it easy & I go back tomorrow so they can measure my cervix again.

On to excuse #2! I'm getting over the flu :( Yep, apparently the flu shot just isn't quite strong enough for me and my craptastic immune system. It hit me hard mid last week and I was out for the count all weekend. Yesterday was my first day back at work and I'm just starting to feel semi-normal again.. besides this nasty lingering cough. boo.

It's not all doom & gloom though. We have our cribs put together and I got our crib skirts in the mail yesterday.. so the nursery is starting to really become THE NURSERY. My goal for this weekend is to clean my dollhouse that I put in their room, and to buy the chandelier.. Dan's goal will be to install it. haha. We'll see what we get done though, since Dan's Birthday is tomorrow and I'm taking him out to a nice dinner and a play on Saturday night.

Alright, here's my 22 week pic. Dan's been working early hours, which is why you're getting a bathroom pic from this morning. :)

How far along: 22 weeks!

Size of baby: Two papayas

Total weight gain/loss: I've gained about 7 lbs

Maternity Clothes: Yep.. almost all bottoms are maternity, tops & dresses are a mix of maternity & non-maternity.

Gender: Two sweet little ladies

Movement: I'm feeling both babies now! I can't get enough of it.

Sleep: eh.. still just o.k. I've been flip flopping a lot, but I'm still sleeping most of the night.

What I miss: hm.. at the moment I honestly can't think of anything. I love being pregnant.

Cravings: This is hard since I've been sick the past week and not much has sounded good. I'm going to go with ice.. I've wanted ice in all of my drinks lately, even if it's just cold water straight from the fridge.

Symptoms: Just the acid reflux.

Milestone: Registering! It was a looong process, but I have to say I had fun doing it and I'm so relieved to have the majority of it done. Check that off my list!

Best Moment this Week: Just feeling the babies.. I've been so worried about the girls, being so sick, so I'm appreciating every little tap I get from them.