Success!

I did it! I actually went out and found a bathing suit that doesn't make me look like a cow! Behold the La Blanca by Rod Beattie One Piece Bandeau Swimsuit, otherwise known as the most expensive swimsuit I've ever bought...

Isn't it puuurdy? This itty bitty pic doesn't do it justice, so I included a linky above just in case you want to check it out. It was $109.00 but it was worth every penny. If you have a large chest and you're self conscious about your tummy, this is the suit for you. Those straps come off, but with my huge boobies, I definitely will be wearing that strap. I'm even considering taking it to a tailor to have them shorten it a bit. Just to give me a little extra oompf. :)

It comes in some other colors but I went for the black.. between the ruching and the color and the fit.. I actually feel comfy in this suit! Hallelujah!

Oh, my one complaint.. I read it in the reviews and it's confirmed. You must buy it in a size larger than your normal size. UGH. Not cool Rod Beattie, not cool. You're lucky I fell in love with this bathing suit. If you really want someone to feel good about the suit, make it run large! I was having flash backs of looking for my wedding dress. Do you think maybe the bathing suit and wedding dress makers have some sort of deal with Weight Watchers, or 24 hour Fitness? Hm....

Superman

So, according to my RE I'm married to him:

The IUI was this morning and it went GREAT! We were a little worried about Dan's count since the last IUI was only 9 million. Well... today's post wash count was 50 million mobile sperm! Woot! Dan was pleased & of course after the RE called him Superman, he was gloating all day. I reminded him that it's not how many there are that counts, it's whether they do their job or not. hehe. I'm so mean, huh?

The other great thing about this IUI was that it was totally quick & painless. The whole thing probably took 5 minutes, followed by the usual 15 minutes of laying on the table. Dan & I joked that the RE has a GPS now for my cervix. haha.

Aaaand now the wait begins. UGH. I hate the waiting game. July 8th could not get here soon enough. We leave for our week long vacation to Santa Cruz on the 10th so for the next 2 weeks I'm going to try to keep busy with vacay planning. I have packing lists to start & some last minute shopping to do.. mainly a bathing suit. EEK.

Update!

My follow-up u/s was this morning, to find out if we could go forward with the IUI, or have to scrap this cycle.

I was super nervous going into the u/s and of course I got the u/s tech that doesn't measure the follies while I'm laying there. I did get a glimpse of the screen and there appeared to be a LOT of follies. It was definitely a crowded situation. Afterwards, I got to the waiting room and told Dan it didn't look good, and I mentally prepared myself for some sucky news.

Well, a few minutes later we were in the RE's office getting some fantastic news! The ganirelix apparently did it's job and most of the follies were smaller than they were on Monday! I have 3 lead follies, and he's confident those 3 will release an egg. Yippeeee!

So, I got the trigger shot while I was there and the IUI is tomorrow morning! Originally we planned on trying back to back IUIs this cycle, but my RE thinks it's not necessary since I'm SO ready to go. Our timing should be perfect! I am beyond thrilled that we don't have to scrap this cycle, and while I know this doesn't mean it will absolutely work, at least we have a chance!

And yes, this post needs as many exclamation points as possible because I'm just that damn excited!!!!

Twelve

That's how many follies I have right now all measuring over 10mm. FML.

Of course doing an IUI with six is a little risky, but twelve? Totally out of the question. So, the new plan is to stop the follistim injections and continue with the ganirelix injections for the next couple mornings. Our hope is that the ganirelix will a) keep me from ovulating and b) get rid of some of those follies. I go back in on Wednesday for another u/s, and we'll go from there.

There's really 3 scenarios that could play out..
1) The ganirelix works and we're able to do an IUI on Thursday or Friday
2) The ganirelix doesn't work, and we convert to IVF
3) The ganirelix doesn't work & we scrap this cycle

My RE definitely thinks we should move on to IVF if this cycle doesn't work out. I guess on the bright side he thinks I'll do great with IVF. The down side?.. does anyone have about $10,000 I can have? Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?

Slacker!

I've been totally neglecting my blog lately. Probably because I don't have a whole lot going on. I do have a better attitude and a better mindset than I did when I wrote that last post. I hate being a negative Nancy, but I'm using this blog as a journal of sorts, and it wouldn't make sense to make everything sunshiny, when in fact I'm having a bad day. But on to the much better news..

IUI #3 is next week! We're pulling out all the stops and doing back-to-back IUIs. That means double the money to shell out (boo) but my RE thinks it will boost our chances of this working. Since this might be our last IUI, I'm willing to do whatever it takes!

Now on to the part that makes me a bit nervous...

My RE thinks we'll be going into the IUI with 6 mature follies. I know there's a lot of controversy over this out there, but I've had the selective reduction discussion with my RE and with my husband, and we're confident moving forward with the IUI. NOTHING has worked up to this point, so we feel like it's a risk we really have to take. I'm not going to spell anything out here. I can assure you I will not be the next Octomom. I'll just leave it at that.

3rd times a charm?

I really hope this saying is correct because we're moving on to IUI#3. :(

Some days I'm in such disbelief.
I can't believe we had to see an RE after a year of trying.
I can't believe the 4 cycles of clomid didn't work.
I can't believe the injectables + TI cycle didn't work.
I can't believe IUI#1 didn't work.
I can't believe IUI#2 didn't work.
I can't believe we're thisclose to IVF.

In October 2008 I would have pictured us right now with an actual baby in our arms.. maybe even a baby that was already crawling and eating homemade baby food.

Maybe that was naive, but I certainly never would have thought we'd be where we are right now.

My favorite Okie

This little man named Severin (sorry Brooke..love you too.hehe), known to me as my nephew. :)

It was love at first sight. He's so cute, so cuddly, and so sweet. I just wanted to put him in my luggage and take him back to San Diego with me at the end of our trip. That's probably not o.k. with my sister, huh? Darn.

Here's a pic of me and the cutie patootie, snoozing away. He was pretty good at that.

Ooo, and another thing I fell in love with while in Oklahoma.. FRIED PICKLES! Why oh why did I not try these sooner? Well, I made up for that by eating them twice while we were there. YUM!

Oh and p.s.. I get to mark off visiting a state I've never been to before, from my list!