Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hail Mary

Hail Mary for me is a term used during a Football game. There's five seconds left on the clock and you're down by 4 points. The only thing left to do is have the quarterback launch the ball aaaall the way down the field, hoping a receiver from his own team catches the ball at the endzone, winning the game at the very last second.

The thing with a Hail Mary is that it makes things much more exciting. The anticipation builds as the quarterback prepares to throw the football down the field, and once he does you can hear a pin drop in the stadium. If someone from his own team catches the ball and wins the game it's a MUCH more exciting win because the chances of that happening are not on your side.

This is definitely our Hail Mary cycle. The last chance before we move on to IUI. I chose to not temp AND not use OPKs this cycle.. a first. I leave in about 30 minutes for a work trip, and won't be back until Monday. Today is cycle day 16, and with an un-medicated cycle I normally ovulate around day 17. Who knows though, maybe I already ovulated.

Really all we can do at this point is cross our fingers and see what happens in about two weeks. I can end this with a really corny and probably gross analogy between the Hail Mary in football, and ttc - but I won't.  hehe.

Monday, February 22, 2010

(almost) Spring Cleaning

It was raining off & on over the weekend, so I decided to kick off my spring cleaning a bit early. First thing on my list was to go through all of our clothes & shoes, and get rid of anything we don't use anymore. Away I went tossing shirts, suits, pants, jeans, skirts, dresses, jackets, bras & shoes, into big garbage bags.

It felt SO good getting rid of things I've had for years, or things I know I won't ever fit into again (except for the pair of my Citizens jeans from my single days..  a girl can dream). After going through three closets, I was left with much tidier (and significantly roomier) closets, and SEVEN garbage bags stuffed with my old garments! I usually clean the closets out like this about once a year, and last year I had one..maybe two bags. Out of the seven bags I filled, six will go to good will and one went straight to the trash.

Now of course there was another (minor) reason for cleaning out my closets. I'm making room for new stuff! I haven't shopped in ages but with my promotion I feel like I need to step it up a bit. I didn't go crazy, but I did score these hot shoes from Nordstrom Rack. Originally $100, and I got them for $60. What's nice is I can wear them to work, but I can also wear them with a pair of jeans. If you know me, you know I LOVE shoes. No matter how much my weight may fluctuate, my shoes will always fit. Aren't they cute??

Thursday, February 18, 2010

And the award goes to..

Meeeee! :) I was given this award by two good friends of mine, Lyse (livelaughloveandmore) and Kate (waiting is the hardest thing). Thanks ladies!

Now according to this award rule, I need to list 7 interesting facts about myself. I really do have a very simple (boring) life, so this might be hard for me. Geez, I need to get a life! Oh well, here you go..

1) I was a vegetarian for about 8 years, and a vegan for a few months. Then I met Dan and all that went out the window.

2) I played Softball for about 10 years, and I was quite good. Not long after being in High School, I decided it would be better for me to get a job and hang out with my friends.

3) I seriously can't even remember a time that I have changed a babies diaper. I assume I have at some point in my life..but maybe not. hm..

4) It freaks me out to be stuck in traffic, underneath an overpass of a freeway. I will purposely leave a huge gap between me and the car in front of me, or ride the car infront of me's ass just to avoid being stuck under the overpass. I live in California people..have you seen photos of the Northridge earthquake?

5) I started working full time straight out of high school & never went to college (unless you count the years I spent going to community college part time, while working full time). I've worked incredibly hard to get where I'm at because I knew not having a degree would work against me.

6) I think I'm addicted to reality t.v. I will DVR just about any of them including.. AI, America's Next Top Model, Project Runway, The Little Couple, Bad Girls Club (don't judge), Amazing Race, 16 And Pregnant, The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, & Top Chef. I'm SURE I'm leaving a long list of them out. UGH. I have a problem, right? On a side note, I also have the first season of Small Wonder sitting in my Netflix queue right now. Remember Vicki the robot? Love it.

7) I have many "blonde moments", as Dan likes to call them. I could definitely write a list of my blonde moments that would be longer than this list, but I won't. I'll keep those to myself for now. :)

Now, here are seven blogs that I nominate for this award:
The Things in My Life
Our New Journey
Hope for Hunter
Little Bit of Us And Baby Too!
Em & M, Plain or Peanut?
A Healthier Me And Maybe Baby?

Friday, February 12, 2010

Bad news..Good news

Let's start with the bad news, which I already mentioned in the last post. The follistim cycle was a bust and I'm officially now on cycle 17. yikes. October 2008 (when we officially started ttc) just seems farther and farther away. Well, probably because it is getting farther & farther away!

So, the plan for cycle 17 is really nothing. Sort of a hail Mary before we do IUI. I have a work conference the end of this month so we would be cutting it a little too close for comfort, and I don't want to use hundreds of dollars worth of follistim, only to have it be of no use. Now I'm just crossing my fingers that I won't ovulate while I'm in Phoenix, giving us a really slim chance of getting pregnant this month (since Dan won't be there with me!).

If cycle 17 is another bust we'll start back with the follistim injections, but this time we'll do IUI. My doc also mentioned he'll change my dosage a bit, to try to result in two mature follies at the time of the IUI, and not just one. Yay! I really got my hopes up this last cycle, so it was the hardest BFN to date. I'm very excited to give IUI a shot, but I'm going to try my hardest to not get my hopes up so high. We'll see how that goes.

So, I guess that was a bit of a bad news/good news mix.

Now for the REALLY good news.. I got a promotion to AVP (Assistant Vice President), an incredible 25% raise, and a huge bonus!!! I've been a bit under paid for some time, managing people who were making more money than I am, so this was a BIG deal. I got the news on CD1.. which I was so grateful for. It allowed me to focus on something positive, instead of the negative. I feel like a huge weight of stress was just lifted off of me.

I'm feeling good and I'm excited to see what the rest of 2010 will bring me!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Birthday Boy!

First things first, the follistim + TI cycle was a big fat fail. There's been a lot of crying, pouting, and feeling sorry for myself this week, but I won't make this my woe is me post. Today is Dan's 31st Birthday, so in honor of that, I'm dedicating this post to him.

Since he turned 31 today, here's a list of 31 reasons why I love & adore him.

1. He's an awesome cook (which comes in handy since I'm not so great)
2. He loves our two dogs like they were our kids
3. He's my fish - he loves the water and will jump in no matter how deep or cold
4. He's hot (especially his tats and his infectious smile)
5. He loves to sing and wishes he had an American Idol worthy voice
6. When he sings he makes up his own (often dirty) lyrics
7. He's passionate about every hobby he's ever been interested in
8. He's Mr.Fix-It.. which also leads to...
9. Manly man hands. Big and rough. Just like man hands should be
10. He's a steak & potatoes (& scotch) kind of guy
11. He loves his Mom, and has a great relationship with her
12. He dreams big
13. He's a great spooner/cuddler
14. He tells me how beautiful he thinks I am (especially when I'm sporting p.j's, no makeup & a ponytail)
15. His feelings get hurt if he doesn't get a kiss when he picks me up from work or right before going to bed
16. He'll root for the Chargers, even though he's a 49rs fan
17. He'll watch cheesy shows & movies with me (& then tells me to never tell anyone about it. oops)
18. He can make a mean dirty martini (extra dirty please) & bloody mary
19. He likes playing our wedding song on car rides
20. He calls me his principessa
21. He loves random slow dancing in the living room (along with twirls & dips)
22. He's not afraid to try anything new in life
23. He's a goof-ball
24. He gets fired up over politics
25. He can take it like a man when I beat him at darts or dominoes
26. He makes me feel safe (even on the back of his motorcycle..well, sort of)
27. He puts up with me when I've had way too much wine
28. He makes me homemade chicken soup when I'm sick
29. He tells me he loves me multiple times a day
30. He knows how to make me smile when I'm sad
31. When it finally does happen, he's going to be the BEST Daddy in the world

I love you Dan.. Happy Birthday!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


That's exactly how this week is going. I'm 7dpo today, and I have one week to go before testing time. So far I have no phantom symptoms, which could be bad..could be good. No clue. I just really wish the next week will fly by so I can just get this over with.

Another thing going slow - losing any weight! It's completely my fault though. I started off really well, working out and eating really healthy, but the past couple weeks I've avoided the gym. I really don't have any great excuse. I used doctor's appointments,  friends visiting from out of town, and a week long rain storm as my excuses. As if it was raining in the gym.

Now this week I have an actual, valid excuse. I'm sick. Not pukeymightbepregnant sick.. I woke up with a sore throat Sunday morning and have just felt like crap since. I'm feeling better today than yesterday, so my hope is I'll be back at the gym tomorrow, Thursday at the latest. I also have this fear that being sick or working out, will get in the way of implantation or something. I know I know.. that's probably silly. I'm just overthinking everything right now because I don't want something I do to prevent anything from happening.

Maybe I can just quarantine myself to my bedroom until Tuesday?