Glass 1/2 Full

This is going to be my new attitude for 2010. Dan is always telling me I'm a pessimist, and I always deny it by saying "NO, I'm a realist!". Well, I've come to the realization that he's right, and I'm wrong (doesn't happen often). I often think of the glass 1/2 empty, instead of 1/2 full.. dwelling on the negative, instead of the positive. I've been a Debbie downer long enough & it's time to make some changes!

I started cycle 15 yesterday, and of course I felt sad.. but I didn't cry. That's a big step for me. Our next step is IUI (intrauterine insemination), but we've decided to focus on getting healthier (read:lose weight) before giving that a shot. I want to make sure if we're going to do something that's costing us $1500 each time, that we're as prepared for it as possible. So, the plan is to try IUI in March. We'll continue trying on our own, but I'm not charting and I'll use my cheapie OPKs until they run out.

Dan & I have also been discussing foster/adoption, and it's something we're both excited to learn more about. We've always said we would consider adoption, even if we were able to have our own biological children, so we figure why wait? Adoption is too expensive, but if we can adopt through the foster care system, it would be way more affordable! We're both so excited, but we want to get all of the information we can on it, before making a final decision. So, we're attending our first Foster Licensing Orientation THIS Saturday!! I'm SO excited, and can't wait to get some questions answered. Much more on this subject to come..

Oh, and as for the list - I've been neglecting it due to the holidays. I did send Christmas cards out though, so I guess that's better than nothing!

Happy Birthday to me..Happy Birthday to me..

Happy Birthday to Loloooo.. Happy Birthday to ME!! (you have to sing that to the tune of the Happy Birthday song, k?)

Yep, it's my Birthday! I turned 29 today, so I'm officially on my last year of my 20's. This makes me a little sad, but I'm excited to see what my 30's has to offer (hopefully just good stuff please).

Today's been a good day so far. I went to Starbucks this morning and the guy I held the door open for said "thanks Miss".. instead of the usual "ma'am" that I've been getting lately. Made me feel 21 again. HA. Some co-workers bought me lunch, made me brownies, and got me a card. Unfortunately I have to go pay my property taxes on the way home from work today (GAH.. why do they have to be due today of all days. Doesn't the city of San Diego know what sorts of bday gifts I could buy myself with all that mula???), but tonight a friend of mine is taking me out. Woot! The original plan was a romantic dinner with Dan, but he had to go away on business (waaaah), so my friend is filling in while he's gone. Yippee!! :) All in all, it's been a good day.

So here's to age 29 being the best year ever..CHEERS!

Cookies & Cocoa

So, yesterday it POURED, and the wind was insane. It was a legitimate storm by Southern California standards. Yes, we're huge babies when it comes to the weather, and people drive like idiots even when it's sprinkling out. I was actually THRILLED though. Why, you ask? Well, it's not very often we get stormy weather & I was looking forward to starting up a fire, eating some homemade chicken soup, baking cookies, and drinking cocoa. Also, on my list of to-do's I have on there that I'll bake cookies and make cocoa the next rainy night. So, here was my chance!!

Dan started a nice fire, and made us some delicious chicken soup. I prepared my batter for the snickerdoodles and placed it in the fridge to chill for about an hour. Then, literally when I'm about to take the batter out of the fridge and start baking, what happens..

..the power goes out!

OMG. So, the candles and flashlights come out, and I come to the realization - I will not get my snickerdoodles and cocoa tonight. BOO. I sulked until we went to bed and the power was still out. It went back on some time throughout the night while we were sleeping, so tonight we will have snickerdoodles and cocoa - even though it's not raining anymore! Here's what I'll be indulging in tonight:

You see why I was so upset now? Mmmmmmm...

Goodbye Thanksgiving, Hello Christmas!!!

Happy REALLY late Thanksgiving to everyone!! I, unfortunately, ended up sick last week right before the Holiday. I took a couple days off of work to rest, and was starting to feel normal again on Thanksgiving. It was our first Holiday spent just the two of us - and the dogs of course. It was relaxing, and nice to not have to entertain since I wasn't feeling well, but I missed having family over. We cooked the traditional dinner & I baked a pumpkin cheesecake (recipe to follow). We played dominoes and lounged around watching Football. It was great! :)

I was tempted to indulge in some Black Friday shopping, but decided I would have a nervous melt down if I tried. Plus nothing really stood out to me in the ads. And of course I like my sleep.

I had my first FAIL on my big list. I forgot to buy myself some flowers, and December was here before I knew it! Seriously, where did November go? Where did 2009 go? I can't believe it's almost Christmas! Nuts. Anywho, I have some things to look forward to this month..
* I turn 29 next week (not sure if that's something I'm looking forward to, but at least it's an excuse to get spoiled for a day)
* I'm helping put together our department Holiday party next week that should be a fun time with my co-workers
* A few of my bestest girlfriends are visiting me in a few weeks for my birthday & we're having a girls night out
* I'm going to see The Grinch Who Stole Christmas play on Christmas Eve!
* Both sets of our parents, plus my Brother-in-law, Sister-in-law & adorable Nephew, will all be at our house Christmas day.

Last, but not least, I think I ovulated today and this is our last shot on clomid. If it doesn't work this month we're moving on to IUI. I'm trying not to think about the disappointment I'll feel on Christmas day not having a baby, and not even being pregnant. If I let myself think about it too much, I know I'll break down. So, I'm trying to look on the bright side.. there will be lots of wine consumed, lots of eggnog lattes, and the thermometer will be thrown out the window for the rest of 2009. Last, but not least..

Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas this year is to see TWO lines on my HPT, not one. I've been a good girl this year, and I won't ask for anything else ever again. OK, maybe I'll ask for another babe in a couple years.. but until then, nothing - I promise!

love,
Lo

Girl Power!!!

Dan and I went to a San Diego Derby Dolls Roller Derby bout.. and it was awesome! I'm so glad I added that on my list to do. I lucked out and one of the lovely derby dolls saw my blog, and offered me 2 free tickets to a bout! :)

The bout was San Diego vs. Humboldt, and it was just like any other sport.. you buy a ticket, grab a beer, someone sings the National Anthem, and there was even a half time show, complete with drummers and derby dolls jumping over some brave fans. The girls all have hilarious nicknames like Kung Pao Tina, McNasty, and Leia Asout. hehe. And let me tell you, those girls kick ass! It's nothing brutal, but there's definitely a lot of pushing & shoving - while they're whipping around the track. So, there were some good spills and crashes. It was very exciting, and super fun. Made me want to go home and dust off my Britney Spears roller skates... I'll just be taking them to the regular ol' roller rink though, thankyouverymuch.

I attempted to take pics, but stupid me forgot to take my flash off, and my camera doesn't do so well with the action shots. For anyone who's never been to a roller derby bout I highly recommend it! Shout out to #U!

Stupid People Island

Don't you sometimes wish there was a deserted island that you can send stupid people to? When we start getting sick of seeing someone on t.v. the public could vote whether they should be shipped off or not.

I think it's a great idea. And here's my top nominees for that ballot:

No, I will not read your book.. I really don't care what you have to say..

You are a dumb beauty queen. Stop trying to act like a victim.. pretty please go away?

Please do no procreate. If you do, your children will most definitely be shipped off to stupid island with you...

I'm sure there are more, but those are my top 3 for the moment. So, who's with me???

Making the best of it..

Here's a few things I indulged in today.. can you guess why?

Yep, I'm not pregnant.

p.s. I am SO ready for 2009 to be over and a fresh start in 2010 to begin.